This has been another one of those weeks, when I have just felt like screaming out aloud. Thank God I love life and I love living even though sometimes my head is just filled with questions, most of which I do not even know the answers to. This post is not meant to scare you at all, not in the least bit but I just felt you had to know that's sometimes life is tough on me and do you know what gives me the strength to go on, come on take a guess. Well it is just the fact that I know that it could have been worse than it is now, or that someone else's life sucks more than mine, or that at least I got food on my table and clothes on my back, WHY COMPLAIN then?? I told myself that even when life deals me a bad hand I won't complain, even when things seem to go against me and I feel the world is crumbling around me, I won't complain, even when I am about to lose hope and just give up, I won't complain, because I know someone else has it worse than me. I guess this is what gets me through the rough and tough times that I sometimes encounter in these trying times. Enough of the sad episodes hope that didn't bring tears to your eyes because that's not the point really but just to give you a glimpse into the world of ME!!
Now snap back to reality and I am going to give a rundown of how my week went, the Monday was really a bit stressful because I had that telephone interview I am supposed to have hinted about in the last instalment. Honestly I really can't say it went perfectly well or that it was a disaster, even though I am hopeful of a positive result I will have to sit on the fence for this one. I am waiting for the results sometime this week and that's going to say whether I am progressing to the assessment centre stage or not. The rhythm of my grad job search has been upset by the number of organizations who are not willing to give jobs to non-EU and UK citizens and this is becoming very frustrating, especially considering I have invested so much financially into this country. Anyway just as Bascom X put it I am just going to keep my eyes on the prize and not let the system get me down, I am just gonna keep on searching because I have earned the right to be here and no one can tell me I can't because I am afriCAN and not afriCANT. Therefore as things stand I am just going to keep on filling in them application forms and sending them CV and will update you every step of the way so watch this space.
The studies are coming up well I can say, good to say last week I attended all but one lecture, which got to be the most boring course I have ever taken but no way am I going to slack off because every mark will help in me achieving my 1st class degree. I am making good progress and at this rate I am sure I will do well in the exams come January. Signal processing is still giving me a hard time and we have now moved into discrete signal processing which I am finding much interesting and a bit easier to understand than CT signal processing. Today I can say I had the perfect start to a Monday morning, had the signal processing lecture at 10 am and for once in a very long time I really enjoyed the lecture and totally understood every aspect of it, hope the good times keep rolling. I am enjoying Advanced Control Engineering as well but wish I could say the same for my project. It seems as if I have hit a low point as far as the project is concerned and I have not really done much in about 3 weeks which is not a good thing but I hope to use the Christmas break to get to speed and regroup as I prepare for my final semester.
Work-wise things are going well but on Friday I locked horns with my Manager at the pizza delivery place and he really pissed me off. The thing is there is this one vehicle which has a problematic battery, sometimes it just does not start and on the Friday guess it just wasn't my day. I am not going to say I wasn't a bit stupid too but that is beside the point. When you get into work you got to perform a vehicle check, lights tyres etc and when I had completed it I just forgot to switch the lights off before cranking the engine the car just wouldn't start. When I went in to tell the guy he just started going on about how we drivers don' think and s**t like that but then I will not let no man talk to me as if I am a child. I just pointed out to him the fact that it is not the first and only time that vehicle has not started and he has no right to say such stuff to me, bottom line I ain't going to bust my ass for the company, from now on I will just come in and do what I am paid to do.
The Aberdeen social scene is like dead, I mean really, nothing ever changes in this city. Try not going out for a whole month and when you finally do go out you will just realise you never missed anything at all, still the same old stuff. For one the DJ's are not adventurous, they are more of trend followers than trendsetters if you get me. So went out with the guys last Monday to Tiger Tiger and I must admit it was a good night out and really had fun for a change, then I was supposed to go out again on Wednesday night but you know how some people are, just cannot be relied upon when you got plans in place. Anyhow am not sure if I am going out anytime this week but I never rule anything out at all.
Well that's almost all the bases covered I think, this got to be the longest post I have ever made but then it is no surprise because I enjoy writing and it has therapeutic effects on me so when I am a bit stressed or excited I just go on and on and on. I miss my family, have not spoken to my brothers in ages even though I speak to mum almost every day, can't wait for this studying business to be over and only then can I hope to be able to afford a trip back home to see people, until then home remains where the heart is.
This is me signing out and just how I do it every week I got to say something to show how wise I have become(yeah right) so here goes( and this one is an original quote cooked up from somewhere between my ears) and it goes like so "I believe in humanity, I see the good in everyone, I don't judge people, I just give them a chance to prove their worth...or worthlessness"
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